ohh well. they say hao shi cheng shuang. but seriously, things arent going well at all. firstly, my hp was smeared by butter. luckily onli e top cover. so nth wrong wif e hp. phew. no money to buy hp le larr. thou i put it under my wishlist in e thots blog. haix. n there's this irritating ulcer at a v awkward postition tt consistently reminds my pathetic mouth of its presence. another thing. there's a change for the escape outing. big SIANX!! ok ok.. i noe its not ur fault.. realli!! lixin!! congrats on getting tt awards!!! hee~ ohh. n in e end, i became e organiser for e changed escape outing. but tt 1 v easy larr. is xn tt one tt is headache lorr. haha. e dates v messy. muz be v organised n careful then can plan it well. haha. this is a compliment, xn. cos i noe u can do it de. haha.

actualli i kinda wish i'm back in sch. cos tt is when i've already highlighted my hair, when i've bought my concert tixs, when i've finished work n got e $$ (hopefully) , when i can see 5 yue tian, enjoy sch's food (i cant stand e coffee shop downstairs le) , listen to gossips? (wahaha) n every other thing we do in sch larr. i wanna start work. i need e $$. i wanna work wif f10!! hopefully can larr. haix. n i wan news frm e cd shop!! argh!! i wanna work there!! realli realli hope i get e job!!

i'm going to die of boredom since there's nth for mi to look foward to now. haix. sianx. ohh. onli one. going out wif f10 soon. i guess this is sumthing to anticipate out of the terrible life i'm leading now. haha. ohh boy. kill mi.

so tong ku now. cannot blog wad i wanna write. kinda like an inside secret ba. *hint hint* haix. ok ok. shall not complain too much. realise i've been complaining non-stop since exams. n my mood still haven stabilise since then.

had an unofficial 5 yue tian gathering. pathetic. cos everything were too rushed. qns, name tags, n sumhow the designing part kao dao le wo. hahaha. mind not realli working le. haha. in e end joy's name tag were quite badly done. haha. then lx's quite not bad. cos hers was the 1st. xn's was e last. oso quite not bad done cos hers was e last. was more relaxed le. i haf better ideas de. but realli no time to make it larr. so bo bian.

was kinda disappointed at how things turned out to be. was actualli disappointed wif how everything started. last min problems. leng changs. not everyone participating. haix.. luckily the qns were prepared since the exam period. accumulated over time. haha. sumthing happened e dae b4 e gathering oso. somehow affected abit larr. realli happie to see xn saying tt she was happie wif my planning. haha. i dunno how much she meant it. but its realli wonderful to feel appreciated =)

i seriously hope no 1 fu yan mi by blogging tt le larr. i noe it was kinda failure. luckily the rest of the outings not planned by mi le. i give up le. haix. onli happie thing to anticipate is the coming outing wif 5 yue tian on 8th oct. but i can expect some probs again thou. mebbe u can sae i tink too much. but usually wad i tink is kinda rite. shall not spoil everyone's mood. haix..

went lot 1 to find jobs wif f10. can i sae its quite useful? yep. it is. i tink i managed to find a job. thou haven confirm larr. v scared she call n tell mi go work tmr. i dun wanna mess up my schedules. suddenly getting rather busy. i dunno y. we like mice larr. scurrying around. frm lot 1 to imm. n realli dunno wad happen to us larr. y did we go to imm? there was realli no reason lorr. she sld noe wad i talking abt. haha. then went to je. we went 2 guardians n 3 watsons. this was how bored we were. arcade. library. mini toons. more than words. n many many places. dun rmb le lar.. haha.

i can actually expect a v short entry here. nth to sae. onli things i cant sae. sldnt sae. wont sae.

wadever it is, i realli haf to thank joy for being my rubbish dump when no one actually found out sumthing was wrong wif mi. she didnt either. but she listened to mi. vent my anger n unhappiness. hees. thz gal!! n realli realli thz to chair for his realli-quite-funni-joke n terry. but i realli love joy!! she did a great part!!

die. tmr gathering. i haven questionaire. another late nite to expect again. haha. but nvm. ohh. n i wanna learn make-up skills frm moonie n f10!! haha.

blue is for depression ~*

OMG!! i went for ah wei's auto session todae!! didnt craze over him. as in i'm ok wif him larr. but not to extent of going crazy over him larr. but after todae. everything changes!! i realli love his attitude larr. infinite rounds of applause for him!! n after coming from the stage, i was totally lost. haha. joy even worse. she blur diao le. looking around for mi when i was just beside her. haha. i wanna dedicate this whole entry on wad happened todae. hahaha.

met up wif joy after her piano lesson. tink we reached at abt 1pm? was it 12 or 1? not impt thou. was shocked larr. realli not alot of ppl. but gd oso. then i went up to buy cd larr. meanwhile was on lookout for jobs oso. haha. then after tt went to queue le. *+ seriously horr. details r boring. bear wif it okiex? +* anyway, ya larr. to summarise, we wrote our names on the albums. n waited n waited. it started at 4.35 i tink. supposed to start at 4 de. but nvm. haha. the staff gave out some boards tt were realli v nicely made larr. v 细心。anyway, he sang 4 songs!! this was when i was mesmerised by him!!! he realli sing v well larr. n the best part is tt there is alot of eye contact cos i was standing quite in front n right in the centre. haha. i was at e 3 row. v relaxing thru out the auto session oso. cos we had 1 whole barrier space to ourselves. v spacious. haha. unlike behind. those ppl were not realli squeezing larr. but no space at all. haha. and they were complaining that they didnt get the boards. hmm.

he started the sutograph session right after the singing performance. this is the INTERESTING part!! haha. i did everything i sld do!! i got my album signed, i said wad i wanna sae to him, he asked mi sumthing in return, i shook his hands and we hugged each other!!!!!! ohh man!!!!

this is the conversation wif him..
mi: 你的歌很好听！
wei: 真的吗？谢谢！那你喜欢吗？
mi (already in the blur state) : ermm.. 喜欢！
wei: 谢谢！

sumthing like tt larr.. joy correct anotx? i realli 4got le!! haha. need ur help. joy was standing behind mi lorr. she sae she heard everything. haha. n i v blur le lorr!! i almost 4got to shake his hands then i wanna turn and leave le. haha. then he held out his hands n said 敏意，谢谢!! ohh my gosh!! melt le melt le!! haha. i held out my wrong hand lorr!! realli totally blur le!! then quickly changed hand larr. then after exchanged a hug... ohh mans!! i dunno where i got my courage to do that larr.. haha!! i tink i was motivated by the previous gal. cos she chat for a long time wif him. so gd!! haha. so i oso wan!! joy oso got improvement!! haha. nvm. let her update her blog n relate her experiences herself. haha. 我做了我该做的事了！！no regrets goin to this auto session man!! best ever after my 1st experience wif mayday!! ohh man!!!! melt le larr!! high high high!!!!

i tink reason y i dare to talk to ah wei is cos i didnt haf special feelings b4 tt ma. then not 紧张 at all. haha. not like last time 56 de. i was so jin zhang even like a week before? haha. abit kua zhang but its true larr. haha. my onli regret todae is i didnt bring my cam. haha. cos he was realli near larr. n he kept looking at my direction. can see actualli got eye contact. tried to capture on joy's cam. but failed.. haha. but nvm. still not bad le. ohh ya!! we went after him as he left. haha. saw him in his van. he waved. i managed to take a pic of tt. but argh!!!! wad i got was light reflection just nice covering his face larr!! haha. but nvm. shall keep tt pic. nice nice!! haha. happie dae!!

time finish: 9:18 pm

woah. haha.. so long then finish blogging. haha. ohh. font is in pink cos i'm happie!! ohh.. suddenly rmb another happie thing!! i got renfu's ez-link!! as in ez-link wif his face on it larr. haha. 9:22pm now. oops. haha.. too long winded. =P

die le!!! say wrong things!!!! so paiseh!!!!! die le larr!!!! kill mi!!!!!!!! oops. haha.. abit too crazy.. haha. todae chair keep sabohing mi. ask mi be leader of tt singing interest grp. but actualli after pondering, i tink its actualli quite fun afterall. haha. then was telling lx n chair. den tt stupid chair lar. sae until like i so bu yao lian!! ahh!! haha. he after tt sae is i tink too much. issit? but anyway, e singing grp was fun!! ermm. actualli we didnt do anything la. haha. onli self-intro. but quite not bad le. we were split into 2 grps. js in grp1!! they wanted to appoint js as leader of grp 1. then she v pro. she str away raise her hand n sae she wanna go to grp 2. cos mi, joy n lx all in grp2. haha.

n tt xn. got lobang ask her go she dun wan. fine lor. next time got anything dun ask her le. dun care her le. ha. wads more impt is, 56 gaiban release le!! n wanyu changing its setting. new look. haha. quite qi dai. sld be quite nice. haha. tmr got 3 events going on. dunno which to go.
1. tiong bahru got superstar event~* heard got autographed poster
2. j8 got awei's auto session~* hmm.. go for wad? dunno. but can consider. haha
3. car wash for charity wif 95.8~* chair say until i so mei liang xin if i dun go.

but seriously horr, joy's rite. i juz got sunburn lorr. so dark le still go under sun. later become charcoal lorr. so no3 is out. e other 2 ma. hmm. dunno wad to choose. haha. ahh. joy nudging.. haha. anyway, tink tts abt it. n lx, dun u dare consider quitting drama ok?!

went mooncake fest celebration ytd. wif 5 yue tian. then moonie n muah came later, during buffet. v zhun horr. haha. still complain larr. say is catering. got food can le larr. anyway, had performances n riddles n lucky draw. ermm. i won e top prize!! mp3 leh!! haha. at that time when my no. was announced, i was totally shocked larr!! dun wanna emphasise on tt le larr. finally met up wif moonie. haha. n went play pool wif them. damn fun de! haha. i tink after so long nv play rite, all of us improved le leh. haha. darn funni lorr. oranges and strawberries. hmm. haha.but wad a pity moonie starting her promos soon. cant meet up as often le.

todae realli fun de!!! went k box wif 5 yue tian!!!! started at 11am, end at 7pm. hahaha.. 8hrs!!!! yo yo!! so fun!! i love it when my voice opens up. haha. nice nice!! anyway, xn onli came at 3pm lorr. missed out so much fun. haha. ohh man!! 56 love story. looks nice. looks nice!!!! give up blogging le. watch show better. haha.ohh ya. they all sing realli well lor.. esp lx!! dun sing so softly next time ok? ur voice is nice lorr!! shall continue now since i'm free.. haha. cos i nv hear xn n lx's voice b4, shall emphasise more on them. haha. xn's voice oso v nice!! i realise every1 sounds differently frm their usual speaking voice. haha. joy n js. both hear b4 de. but realli v nice oso!! haha. realli happie ytd. so funn!!

17th sept 05. my official 1st time to 56 auto session. quite a bad 1st impression i sld say. e sun was incredibly strong. wif no shelter nor trees wadsoever. but at least we had brollies. not so bad i guess. anyway, after 8 long hrs of waiting, we finally saw them!!! but tink they too tired or too stressed or wadever la.. joy say them sign until v fast. faster than usual. hmm. sad. n onli renfu looked up!!!! but gd enough le larr. heex.

after the auto session, they had another event at ngee ann city. 8.30 lorr!! quite late. but in the end still went lar. anyway, we were at e 1st row there lar. but then hor, that event onli lasted around half an hr i tink. so short. but i thot i saw renfu look in my direction!!! *dreaming* but i realli thot i did larr. but i did a realli stupid thing. stupid until i wanna kill myself. cos at that v moment, i took up my lousy until can be scraped camera, trying to capture tt moment. n apparently i failed. n worst thing, i blocked tt contact!! argh!! kill mi!!!

backtrack abit. took cab in e morning to padang. tt driver horr. cant stand him larr. keep asking y i going there. n he dun even noe where's padang!! n e taxi was so hot larr!! wad the.. haix..

anyway, i v tired now even after i slept for 8 hrs. quite little lorr. haha. and my left shoulders ache cos of the bag's weight. my face n head burnt. hands filled wif different [skin] colours. n worst of all, my throat not feeling well. not sore throat. i didnt noe throats can haf calluses lorr. until renfu got it on his. *shivers* but mine dun tink so serious. but it has nv happen b4 larr. abit worried. sometimes ok sometimes not. hmm.

ohh ya!! haf to backtrack to FRI!! mi n joy went padang to check out the landscape. then went suntec. ohh my gosh!! we witnessed an accident happen lor!!!! a car hit the sign post. the car was ok. but the sign post was wrecked totally. i dun understand how tt could haf happened. but i onli turned my head after i heard tt bang. scary!! then sumthing worse happened!! we had to use the very 'nice' staircase at suntec there. nice on the appearance lar. but when we used it, S-C-A-R-Y!!!!!! the stairs were transparent wif many many lines across!!! v scary cos it makes u feel v giddy n unsure if u are stepping on the rite thing. haha. then for once i'm like holding on this tight to the railing while going down the stairs lorr. *eww*

ohh ya. i realise i haf a phobia for driving a car. the view of the road in front of u is scary lorr!! n after the accident i saw, i was totally freaked out!! no way will u see mi drive a car!! i wan a chauffer!! either that or public transport. haha. no car for mi!! even as i was in e 'hot' cab in e morning, my hands were cold lorr. esp when i saw tt road. the white lines on the road passing by at a v high speed as e cab drive past. eww..

ahh!! still still so high as ever!! how?? going crazy soon. hee =D i wun complain abt the lit test like wad xn wld do (actualli i tink js n lx will oso complain.. haha.) i dun wanna repeat module!! ahh!!

woahs~!! i found the cross necklace i've been looking for since dunno when. ohh man!! so happie. n i found the perfect salon to get my hair dyed, but wad i lack now is the most most impt thing. CASH!! ohh mans.. i need a job desperately. n i'm starting to worry for sat again.

ohh ya. everyone's telling mi i was on tv. ahh!! so embarrassing!! haha. i saw lx's half head. some1 say she saw xn oso. where's JOY?! and i saw some ppl frm our class quite a no. of times too. haha.

i suddenly realise my paras all v short. n i realise there realli isnt anything for mi to crap anymore. haha. so tts abt it. wahaha.

3 more daes to exam!! but i still cant find my motivation nor concentration.. ohh no!! tryin to plan a 5 yue tian outing. not successful either. not complainin thou. cos organising can be fun!! =D but everything can come after 17th. woohoos~ i suppose it IS settled?

i cant concentrate. ohh manx!! anyway, i've taken a liking for oldies nowadays. listenin to Tears in Heaven now. woah~ i dunno how to describe. but its realli nice. its unlike tt impression i haf of oldies. ohh, n there is Imagine by John Lennon. nice nice. heard Masa's version. he sang it on some variety shows. n at tt moment, 我真的被他电到了。it was realli nice!! so different frm tt usual cheeky Masa. woohoos~!! i might not haf tt feeling again when i watch it next time, but at tt moment, it realli clicks..

i realise sumthing. i might not haf time to prac my piano for this wk!! die le. wif e coming exams, its enough to kill mi. not as if i'm studying day n nite larr. but i dunno. n i'm getting bored. i'm giving here up for my other blog. heex. wanna try sumthing new there.

*记得，只要看到你的笑容，一切的痛都是值得的 。。。*

my eye hurts. it feels swollen. hmm. realli sore in e mornin. so triedd tearing to reduce e pain. guess wad? i can cry at my wish!! haha. so proud of myself =) but it still hurts now. luckily not going sch or wad. no need wear contacts. hmm~

realli v tired of trying to force my mind to even start concentrating on e books larr. i c-a-n-t focus!! n my eye hurts!! i dunno how lx can actualli sit down wif e books everyday lorr. i mention her cos i realli v seldom see her online. n xn oso. dun tink they watch tv oso lorr.

anyway, just wanna thanx joy for lending mi those discs larr. noe u v 不舍得.. so yarr.. thx nia!! and speaking of joy reminds mi tt 56 coming!! 17th!!!! its at padang, but i dunno how to go!! still haven settle on how to go!!!! some1 volunteered to 'bring mi there' larr. but then horr, 'onli after they reach'. dunno wad tt means. but its a bit ermm. n i juz received some bad news. even wif my motto shining at mi, i still cant smile..

another thing. mayday coming next mth. i might haf felt excited in e past, but now.. i guess i'm not in e mood for anything. but all in all, i manage to find e taiwan version of the mayday new album. sumthing to feel happie abt ba. since it's limited edition in spore. not in e mood to blog further..

《 就算再不开心，也不要皱着眉头，天知道谁不小心就会爱上你的笑容。。》 可是，现在的我，开心得起来吗？

yoz!! in a perfect mood!! haha. cos i'm lying in my bed doin wad i wanna do. instead of being in sch at this v moment like usual. cos its h-o-l-i-d-a-e!! woohoo!! not realli larr. still got exam on 15th. haven study oso. haix. but nvm. always look on e bright side of life~ imagine e tune urself =P main intention todae is to post this horoscope analysis here. ever wonder who has e biggest mouth around u? haf a secret to share but afraid of leaks? [sounds crude =X] but u noe wad i mean =P but here's the top 5 horoscopes who cant control their mouth, whether intentionally or unintentionally, or its juz their nature. haha.

5th on e list. Cancer! they like to gossip. might be quite surprising rite? and the most impt thing is: they like to 碎嘴。。[ joy.. get it?? ] realli not i say de. is wei wei an say de. haha. soo accurate!!

4th.. Sagittarius!! they are more straight forward. a typical scenario is when u are absent frm sch and tcher asks where did u go, n a Sagi fren wld straight away say u went watch movie or wad. as in tellin e truth unintentionally larr.

3rd's Libra!!! they also like to gossip, abit like cancer. and they will deny say is not they say de. but they like to gossip more abt clothes and fashion stuff.

2nd~ Leo!!!! Leos are those type 玩太疯 then gossips will slip frm their mouth de. one example is tt if a gal tells a Leo guy tt she's pregnant and tells him not to say it out, e leo guy will say ok. but when they were happily dancing, jumping up n down, e Leo guy will tell e gal to be careful cos she's having a baby.

finally, 1st on the list.. *drum rolls* G-e-m-i-n-i !!!!! this sld be quite expected larr. i dunno. no offense. but even the horoscope expert said it herself despite being a gemini herself. haha. they r juz by nature chatty larr. so might accidentally spill some beans. haha. they will give more info than required. usually is unintentionally de larr.

ok larr. this is just for fun larr. dun take it too serious. and for those who dun believe in horoscopes, juz take this as a form of entertainment lorr. haha. info taken frm Vivian, tt taiwan horoscope expert. haha. realli like her tests. there's this test tt follows which was quite accurate for mi at least. it requires choosing of pics larr. hmm. got chance can try. ^.^

back to usual stuff. sharon they all wanna go k box on wed. wondering if i sld go. but a bit weird leh. n i haf no confidence wif my voice. its going high n low w/o warning de. haix. i noe it doesnt matter larr. but cos i'm listening to it ma. will feel embarrassed de. and horr. i'm ultimately lazy larr. haha. they all going toa payoh there. woah~ so farr. haha. so still considering. hmm. haha. ohh no!! still got exam haven study ahh. dunno how joy manage de. she like going out everyday. but not like i got study when i'm at home larr. haha.

calling fer 5 yue tians!! look here!! give mi the dates tt u all wun be free. i wanna plan outings. i cant stand waitings. haha. as u all can see le larr. and start saving $$ horr. dun tell mi no cash, dun wan go out. @.@ trying to find sumthing fun to do. still rmb the questionaire? dun worry, it sld be fun!! provided u all play along lorr. dun sian sian refuse to play can le. oops. abit early to say this. haha. but anyway, exams coming le!! 56 coming le [supposedly] !! concert tix going to start selling le!! confirm date le!! i wan chair's cam!! woos~

*~ i'm trying to change myself. into a different mi. can i succeed?~*

went back to sch ytd. for the channel u's show 有话就说。abit sianx at 1st. cos its sat larr. still haf to go back. thot of leavin wif xn. but in e end decided not to. haha. cos no place to go. and its like onli we 2 leavin. abit sian. so stay lorr. but at least e chair wasnt hard. managed to get the last row. so e chair was cushioned. gd!! onli prob is we were sitting to the side and there's this cameraman hanging around in front of us. duhx.

on e other hand, sumthing gd happened. haha. e host, desmond koh, hung around for a while to take pics. haha. i was trying to 偷拍 him. then scarly he wwalk over and posed for my hp. haha. he looks realli gd in tt pic larr. ohh man. n he said sumthing like muz keep set tt photo as wallpaper for at least 3 daes or sumthing like tt. haha.

after tt went clementi to eat. wif lx n joy. sumthing unpleasant happened. not unpleasant larr. more like embarrassing. dun wanna talk abt it. dun ask. seriously. haha. but anyway, main thing is lx realli cant eat alot of things lorr. haix. we were like 'hunting' around for her food. then cant find anything at all. in e end we changed coffee shop. she ended up eating 水饺面.. but guess wad? she cant eat the meat n e prawn n e mushroom in e shui jiao. so end up eating the skin of the shui jiao n the mee larr. half the mee summore. cos the chilli too spicy n she cant take cold drinks.. joy oso had dificulty eating e mee. so end up i finish last again. dotx.

ytd arr. xn say she said sumthing wrong. i didnt hear leh. hmm. haha. ohh ya. saw chen ying's boy. so cute!! n ohh. ytd's topic was abt AIDS. hmm. quite interesting oso. so overall not so bad. haha. had a call out session to an AIDS-carrier. understood some difficulties tt the carriers might face. haix. kinda sad oso larr. esp when u haf such probs when u're still so young. but anyway, i still tink we sld enjoy life as it is now. be optimistic!! watched abit of ge dou on scv todae. n i muz say renfu's acting still touches mi like b4!! realli feel v sad larr. cried again. haha. its my mind playing trick again. can realli tink alot larr. tinking of ways to wet my eyes. dunno =X

ohh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! last thing to add!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 5566's coming to sg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ohh man!!!! realli cant wait for e dae!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! according to joy its on 17th n 20th. thou dates abit weird cos they will be at msia on 18th n 19th. tts all. bye!!

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